Tuesday Blood Tuesday

So after that announcement at CPC today I turned to an old friend for some comfort; U2. The first song I flicked on was Sunday Bloody Sunday and I thought it was a little appropriate:

“I can’t believe the news today
Oh, I can’t close my eyes and make it go away
Tuesday Bloody Tuesday”

I am almost done two years of school that mean absolutely nothing in the real world unless it’s all in BA form. And I can’t get my BA because they had to let go of the professor who taught my program. I had the next four years all planned out until today. Today I have nothing to show for all of my hard work unless I move to Abbottsford, Toronto or Calgary.

This all is like breaking up and realizing that you have wasted two years of your life in a relatioship and probably shouldn’t have dated in the first place.

So as Bono says:

“Wipe your tears away
And it’s true we are immune
When fact is fiction and TV reality
And today the millions cry
We eat and drink while tomorrow they die
The real battle yet begun
To claim the victory Jesus won”

I need to take this all in perspective. Sure I just totally lost control of my schooling and what I had planned for the future, but I need to take a step back. It’s not the worst thing that can happen, and I know absolutely that God will carry me through this all. Nothing catches God off guard, but on my part this all feels like a sucker punch.