Three and a Half Hours and Counting

So it’s just after three AM… four hours till my alarm goes off and I have to be coherent enough to play bass, and I cannot for the life of me fall asleep. It’s been a while since I have had a visit from the Insomnia fairy, and I have that stupid insomnia song by the Bare Naked Ladies is playing through my head. I have been lying in bed for three and a half hours, wide awake, and it’s been a while since I have posted about anything other than how busy I am, so here’s something new: Random thoughts of an insomniac.

I’ve had a really stressful week of school where every spare moment was spent working on my studies so of course the question ‘Why am I in school’ came to mind a few times, usually during a moment of high stress. This of course leads to the debate about what I am doing with my life. Am I in the right program? I really want to find a career doing what I love… so what do I love? What I am the happiest doing? I guess the answer to that is drumming. I absolutely love playing music, and am the happiest when I am on stage… now how do I make a career out of that? Do I have a chance of actually making it in the music industry? Hmmmm…. Maybe I should have followed some other dreams. I wanted to be an architect or a civil engineer for a while, how about being a chef, maybe a photographer, or a poet; I think that I am strange enough to pull that off.

Why do they call it a rubix cube? If it’s named after the inventor that’s one awesome name.

One of my newts is sick, so of course I spent some time thinking about that. She is either afraid of her food and won’t eat it, or she has some major self esteem issues and has chosen to be anorexic. I hope that Annabelle doesn’t die, I like her a lot.

I miss watching Sesame Street. Not this new ‘Stupid Park’ show that they have now. I heard that they killed off Bert by the way, is there any truth to that?

I spent some time running over the new bass line I am learning. It’s the song hysteria by muse, and It’s a lot faster than I can play right now… but a lot of fun, I love that band.

I started listening to a Klezmer Rapper today. He’s an orthodox Jew who can beat box really well. His name is Matisyahu and totally worth checking out.

I have to make a decision about investments, and after thinking about it for a while I decided that shuffling my portfolio should not be done at 2 am, not a wise choice.

Has anyone else noticed that Santana’s music is ALL THE SAME? He plays the same lick in all of his songs… or maybe I am just crazy.

I should go and take some pictures of my farm, it’s really pretty this time of year. But I can’t take Lindy; she gets burs all over her. She turned 9 two weeks ago… It’s sad to think that my puppy will die within the next four or five years. I will have moved out by that time, so it’s won’t be as hard, but she’s my puppy… that’s too depressing to think about.

I miss Amanda. She’s living in Denver and working with YWAM. She’s an awesome girl, and I am so glad she is following God’s call for her life, but it would be nice to have her back home…. stupid ywam…jj I wish I was a ywamer : )

It’s time for a hair cut… should I go really short, or just kindof short… or should I take the plunge and go for dread locks finally…

How much happier would I be if I could afford to buy all of the things I want? I don’t think It would make too much of a difference. I want to find a really good job next summer because I have my internship next year, maybe I could work up at my dad’s mine or at a fishing camp. Or should I go to Gambia again as a leader on the team… decisions decisions.

I usually go for a run when I can’t sleep but it’s -5 outside right now, and I really don’t want to freeze to death. I know I am a sissy, but I worked outside for an hour today and couldn’t feel my fingers anymore. So due to lack of options I am off to ‘sleep’ again. I have successfully written a really long post and wasted a half hour. If any of you made it to the bottom I congratulate you, I hate reading long posts… sorry guys!